When a topic or a theme keeps coming up over and over again that's a clear indicator that there's an opportunity to learn! The word and concept of patience has been this recurring theme for me lately.
It's no wonder that I have avoided trying to glean what "patience" has to teach me, since in my vague understanding of the word it has always implied letting go of my enthusiasm and drive. I get the image of someone sitting idly on a couch, waiting for the doctor to come out and get them, peacefully wasting time. Wasting time!! Time is perhaps the most valuable resource to me so this goes against everything! That's why when I know I will have to be patient I always pack a bag of activities. From books to diaries, ipads to computers, and anything else I am working on that I can fit into my purse or a backpack, I come equipped when there will be idle time. Does this mean I am patient?
Google defines patience as: "the capacity to accept or tolerate delay, trouble, or suffering without getting angry or upset." And under that definition I am patient. But what about the unexpected delays when I don't have the activities with me - or worse, what do I do when I receive the divine message to have patience towards my career path? How can I pack a bag of activities for that one?!
The realization I came to was that I CAN! Well, a bag of activities of sorts. If I am peacefully dwelling in the present moment, doing all that I can to revere and enjoy my time, just like I would do sitting in an airport waiting on a delayed flight, perhaps this is the message patience is delivering. This may be exactly what I need to apply to my life right now. And it's so simple. I tend to berate myself for not getting on with things faster, career goals, family goals, etc. And that sounds like impatience - which also sounds like noncompassion. Maybe these two words are linked and the ultimate recurring theme is to be fully in the present moment, compassionate and peaceful with yourself and others.
And now I hear the resounding, "how?!" More next blog.
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